i totally found the 8 double sided pages i wrote about my yr ages 13-14 and i can hardly touch them but i’m going to, soon, and read them at the same time as this word.doc i also haven’t opened since it was made 2 yrs ago
i feel so safe in art galleries and this one art room in a prefab at uni and my foundation class basically let me live in art spaces forever so i can transmute and spill out of of my physical form without leaving it
i;m so lonely i literally hv no friends n just go back n forth btw the lib/lectures/home n i know theres event n things n in tutes i can meet people but im so shy n its funny cause i want to hv some1 to talk about 'real things' w like more than the usual hi! w do you study! let's go to the bar 2nite! i want something more but i dunno if i could anymore,it's been inside so long i think it would be rusty/stupid if i tried,its so hard n every1 seems to hv their 'gang' n im just quiet/reserved
idk, being a person with other ppl is weird and i’m not v good at it but i think u maybe hav to try teach urself that ur feelings are valid and being quiet doesn’t mean u can’t share things w other ppl. sometimes you have to realise that’s it’s not ur fault and we live in these models and environments of relating that intentionally work rlly well for some ppl and not for others. i think you have to decide to build places for urself where it’s possible for u to connect w ppl in ways that work for u. like it could be this one party u decide to have, or a message you decide to send, or a question u decide to ask, or a project u want to do w someone, or single space between u and someone else that u want to fill with feelings? idk? i think u hav to b rlly conscientious about it and it can be rlly tiring but i think it gets easier and i think that eventually the right ppl and the ppl who u’ll connect with will kind of just happen in those places u make. i don’t know hu you are and idk if that helps at all but yeah? i guess message me off anon, too, if u want.
What is it like 2 B U?
it’s not much like what i wanted it to be like rn and i’m in a weird space that i might not get out of i guess. i think it’s like feeling stuff next to other ppl who are feeling stuff too and hoping there’s something redeeming about doing that together.
do you know the best place to buy secondhand/thrift?
idk about the ~best~ i think maybe it’s down to luck wherever u go i’m a southside kid tho so i usually go to tuggers vinnies/salvos in phillip. also there’s an ms shop in tuggers which is kind of nice and defs not as busy as vinnies and the ladies who work there are super friendly!